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Maybe I should look into myself more often. Maybe I don’t like weak people, or emotional people because maybe I haven’t accepted those traits to be of my own…not yet.
It upsets me to a degree, that I am not there yet. I get quite impatient with my shortcomings and sometimes I dismiss them altogether as to not address them.
I think the lesson I am being taught unconsciously is to be. Whether its nice, or mean, or evil, or bitchy, or funny, or crying, or in love.. to just be it. Because that is more real than anything else. I am scared though and I am trying so hard to hold onto something that probably just isn’t even there. I am going about it all wrong. It has nothing to do with the things I say, if I say something with a cute smirk or if we both point out coincidences. I think he wants me to look into my mirror and feel nothing but complete happiness and contentment. I know I will get there and it will require a lot of growth. I even feel that it’s not even about pretending to be confident or appearing confident. I think it’s okay to be insecure, it’s okay to not like your nose or your short temper. The key being that it’s perfectly ok. No one is expecting or requiring or asking anyone to be free of shortcomings, what is being hoped for me ( I can only assume ) is that I embrace it and enjoy it and make it my own and not be afraid to show people everything that is me, even if its not the norm, even if others may perceive it as a weak, or crazy, or irrational but to not excuse all things that are me.
NO MORE EXCUSES. For my instability. hah.
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Now everyone is out there touching my stucco wall
For the most part, I generally don’t do “favorites”. I might have a lucky number, or a favorite color for the time, or album, or food. But many don’t fall into my favorite movie category, mainly because I have a horrendous memory and the things I should remember, I don’t.
I hope to remember this movie.
If not, I am okay watching it again. I also hate watching movies more than once generally unless many years have passed.
This one is fantastic, its beautiful. The characters were not overly in your face. They weren’t trying so hard to convince you, or force you to feel one way or the other. I felt so emotional watching this movie, even listening to the music brings me back to the emotions I felt when I was watching it. You ended up loving each and everyone in the movie and you wanted to only the best for everyone. There were such powerful scenes, frame by frame each shot was done beautifully. I loved it. I really did/do. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did and I hope you get something out of it.
This song below is greatness.
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